Fun play date!!

Today we had a nice morning. It started off a little on the crazy side but we ended up meeting up with Wendi, Judah and Aly at Mojave Narrows to let the kids play and run some of their energy out! I don't think either of us planned on it being that warm so after about and hour of playing outside we decided it was time for Juice It Up!! The boys pretended they were McQueen racing to have smoothies... you got to love their imagination. Judah and Jake are the same age and they really seem to get along great. Carter did his best to keep up with the big boys and occasionally I found myself climbing something someone my age should not be climbing... =) I had to get Carter down cause he would get up high and then could not get down... it was still a funny sight, me climbing all over kids playground equipment.

We went for Smoothies and since their was no where to sit we plopped down on the sidewalk outside and enjoyed the shade and cool drinks. I had a really nice time visiting with Wendi and I know Jake had a blast!

We are now off to take naps and maybe get some laundry done!

What a weekend!

Gosh... we had such a busy wonderful weekend! My little sister is moving to Thailand so we had a really nice going away party this weekend for her... it was crazy trying to fit 40+ people into my parents house cause the weather was to cold to be outside. My mom, myself, my two sisters and my Aunt Debbie cooked like we were on Iron Chef on Friday night and Sat during the day to feed all those people! It was such a great time and such great memories!

Sunday, Carter came down with a really high fever. He was bouncing between 102 and 104 so we decided to call off the dedication at church and took him to the hospital. He has a double ear infection and a throat infection... my poor baby! It made me so sad to see his little body so sick!

On a good note, since we worked so hard this weekend I slept like a ROCK!! WOW! It was great. Even though Noah is still getting up in the night... I know, I know... we are working on it! I went right back to sleep and it was amazing!

My sis leaves tomorrow at noon... I am really trying hard not to think about it. How does one go from seeing your sister more than twice a week to not for a whole year or more?

Noah...

He is becoming such a little sweet heart!! Really I don't know if its just cause he is my baby... and I just feel this really emotional attachement to him or that he is just so dang cute, but what ever it is... I just feel so blessed to be his mommy!

He is growing so fast too... already wanting to sit up and he is really into what ever the other boys are doing! Jake and Carter really had him laughing the other day! I ran to get the video camera so I could get it but then Carter was to intereted in the video camera and stopped playing with Noah. Everyday I get to spend with these three amazing boys I am truly blessed!

I am out...

I have been in a "FUNK" that last like week or so.. not really sure what it was that was bothering me so much but I bet it has to do with all the change that is going on around here!

1. Noah is awake so much more

2. Carter is talking... and by that I mean he only says "MOM" all the time

3. Jake has been pushing to see what is allowed and what is not...

4. My sister is moving away... by away I mean THAILAND!

5. We started SMILES (this was a great thing for me)

6. I had a cold

7. Honey is working 9 hour days instead of 8... I know only an hour but seems like forever to me!

8. Did I mention my little sis is moving to Thailand???

Anyway, things are a changing.... and its not bad but it can cause one to be in a "FUNK"! But I am doing better the last two days and I have gotten caught back up on all my house work and I might even wash the car... or maybe not... hum... a nap??? Gosh what to do??!!

SMILES.. and some tears

I am so excited to have started SMILES (Bible study for mom's) this week. I know SMILES started three weeks ago but we were gone and then I had my kidney surgery so I missed the first three weeks. But man I am I glad to have gone today. I was feeling under the weather with a cold, but decided to go anyway since I had missed to much already. Truly God was at work this morning. We all got dressed and ready on time, everyone was happy and not complaining on the way to church and checked in on time.

I felt blessed to be able to sit at a table I am at. It is a good mixture of ladies I know, ladies I don't know, and ladies that I recognize but have never spoken to. There is comfort in all of those! I am glad my good friend Cassie was there with me though, she always makes things easier.

I was surprised this morning by how emotional I was. I know this sounds like a funny statement because generally I am an emotional person. Now I was there to be clarification here, I am not just emotional in a "crying" way. I love to laugh, smile, love, cry, and get angry. Anyway back to my story. This morning the woman leading the study... I can't even remember her name now... that's bad huh?... anyway, she was talking about how God has been healing her through a loss in her life. Her loss was a pregnancy at 16 weeks. This hit me like a ton of bricks!

Before I was blessed with my wonderful children, I had three miscarriages. All second trimester and all very difficult for me. Because of life at the time, I don't know if I have ever dealt with my true emotions about my losses. Because I was not in a place in my life that was God seeking, I think I was not able to allow Him to heal me as I tried to let time heal me.

This morning shed a light on to my path. Although it has been years, and I have three wonderful boys, I am still mourning the loss of three other babies. Over the years I have been close to other women who have suffered the loss of their babies and it has always brought up the hardest feelings for me to deal with. And I now realize that because I had not allowed God to heal me, I was not able to be a true friend to those when they needed me. How could I give words to encourage God's healing when I have not allowed God to heal me? This morning I resolved to allow God to heal my wounds... no matter how old they are.

I still grieve....